‘GOOD-BYE’ a simple farewell remark or an Unforgettable moment.

GOOD-BYE”, a lovely word that means a lot for the life of each and everyone. It is true that we use this word so frequently in our daily life but it is also true that we have forgotten the sense of this beautiful word.

Whenever we go away or we leave office, simply a word good-bye comes out from all of us. 

How do you react, if today you say good-bye to a person and that is your last good-bye to him/her?

Shocked??  Yes the same incident has happened with me.

He was not in the list of my best friends but we studied together in the same class.  Rashid, yes this was the name of that boy. Blue eyes, fair color, dark black hair and nobody can forget the beautiful smile that always appears on his face. He was very shy and this might be the reason he used to sit near the last corner seat of the class.

 I undoubtedly remember that Rashid used to come to the class before anybody comes. Other boys always fought for the front desks but he never used to sit on the front desks even he used to come first in the class.

Only 15 days were remaining for our summer vacations, all we were very happy. We just finished our 8^th class examinations. We used to study 15 days for the next level before the summer vacation.

When I reached school it was 7:30 in the morning. I was very much exited about the summer vacations, which was going to start from tomorrow.

After the last class we met with each other. I personally wished each and every one. On one hand I was very happy for summer vacation but other hand was bit sad because of going away from my friends.

I saw Rashid, he was looking outside of the class. He was not seems to be happy for summer vacation. I took my steps towards him. Hey Rashid, What are your plans for vacations? I asked, nothing Shivam, he replied.

Are you not going home? I asked.

I shall go Shivam. I am waiting for math teacher for next year tuition.

Oh! Carry on then, I replied.

I remember the moment when I was returning to the home.

I shouted, hey Rashid “GOOD-BYE”, Happy Vacations. 

He passed his beautiful smile and replied, GOOD-BEY Shivam. Happy vacations you too.

Next day morning my father told me that one of the kids from my class met with an accident while coming out from school.

An unbalanced truck dashed with that kid.

After vacation when I reached school. I didn’t see Rashid in the class. He was the one who always used to come before anybody else. I was bit surprised.

Suddenly a beautiful smile of Rashid and the word “GOOD-BYE” appeared in my mind.  I was able to engrave the whole situation in my heart.

Oh God! It was Rashid.

Tears came out from my eyes. Rashid’s face was appearing again and again in front of me. I moved towards the seat where Rashid used to sit. I was feeling that his voice was still echoing in my ears and saying “GOOD-BYE”, “GOOD-BYE”, “GOOD-BYE”

14 yeas have been passed after this incident but Rashid’s face is still fresh in my mind. That echo of “GOOD –BYE” is still present in my heart.

Whenever I say “GOOD-BYE” to anybody, it always memories me the smiley face of Rashid. 

Nothing more to say but now you can choose what to say

‘GOOD-BYE’ is a simple farewell remark or an Unforgettable moment.

Never let your heart break. Keep smiling…

Heartbreak is a very strange distress. It is exquisitely painful, and yet we cannot find an injury on our body. It is like one big emotional pain but it also seems to spark off hundreds of other emotions. We hate the feeling of heartbreak, and yet we find ourselves compelled to go over and over memories, ideas or fantasies, which make the feeling worse.

I still have a clear view of the time when my heart was broken first time in my life. I realized the pain, grief and distress inside my broken heart, which is bit difficult to express. Lets take you to the days of my childhood. I was 6-year-old very funny and active kid. I hardly used to request for anything from my parents.

One day I was in my class. Teacher was telling us a story of 3 kids. They go to the circus and do lot of enjoyment. “CIRCUS” was the new word for me. I didn’t hear about the circus before. I asked my teacher, “What is this circus mam?” She explained this word in such way that I couldn’t control myself to see the circus in reality.

Whole night I was dreaming about the colorful and amazing story of circus. So many animals were dancing. Jokers were showing their amazing and funny shows. I was very much excited to see the circus. Next day I started asking my father, “Papa circus jana hai, Joker dhekney hai.”  My father didn’t know the feeling that had actually started coming in my heart. He simply replied, Circus who told you about that? My English teacher, I replied.

She told me everything about circus. I want to see the circus papa. My voice became gruff. Papa was looking at me like I had asked for very amazing thing. How could my father bring me to the circus? But I couldn’t understand that. I was 6-year-old little kid. 

Papa tried a lot to convinced me. But my heart had already developed a colorful picture of circus in my mind. I was not getting convinced. Atlast Papa said, “I would bring you to the circus in the evening.”

His approch for convincing me was pefect but he didn’t know the feelings that had built up like an Everest in my heart.

Whole day I was thinking about the circus. I was not able to give the concentration on my class. I was waiting for the evening. I told all of my friends that I was going to circus. I was very exited.

I was staring at the door. It was the pleasant moment for me when papa opened the door and entered inside. His eyes skimmed my face. He internally realized that I have not convinced yet.

After having his evening snacks. He called me. I was very happy. He said, “There is no circus in our city that’s why we are not going anywhere. Don’t cry. Go and play with your friends.”

I didn’t know what was happening to my little heart. A storm was coming inside the Everest of feeling.

A little heart was broken.

It was the very tough moment, which cannot be described in words.

A smile comes to my face whenever that old moment comes to my mind. We actually don’t think about the current conditions. Whenever our heartbreak, our condition become like a small kids. If we analyse the situation and the current circumstances, we can come out of sadness and the feelings that we have developed in our heart.

Today, whenever my heartbreak or I feel sad. I recall that old moment and it always console me.

Never let your heart break. Keep smiling…

“SORRY!”… The word which is not limited to just a word of English dictionary…

Incidents happen in our life, which we simply ignore. Is it possible that one incident can change the meaning of the word “SORRY”, which we use so frequently in our daily life?  

Yes. For me this word is now not limited to just a word of English dictionary…

I saw my watch. It was telling me that I was already late to office. I had to cross the road to reach my destination. But it was huge traffic on the road. God knows what has happened to this beautiful city Bangalore. I was murmuring to myself and started crossing the road.

Suddenly I dashed into someone. I simply said “SORRY” (A normal word that comes to every human being when something happens wrong) and started walking towards my way. I was in a very delight mood and couldn’t analyze the upshot.

After crossing the road I found out one voice. Somebody was literally screaming. I turned back just to know what had actually happened? One man was lying in middle of the road and people were crossing him like he was not a human being. My heart started thumping wildly. I forgot that I was getting late to my office. I started running towards that person. One question was running in my mind that who was responsible for his situation. When I reached there and turned his face. OH My God!

He was the same whom I dashed just 5 min back

Blood was coming out from his mouth. Everything was now clear in my mind. When I scooted that person, he lost his balance and fall down to the road. For a pedestrian, signal timing was only for 2 min and everybody wanted to cross the road within that time that’s why nobody took care of him. Everybody smashed him like a toy.

Suddenly I saw one stick that was 5 feet away from that person. OH My God! One more shocked for me.

He was blind…

I was very depressed at that moment. I was the one who was responsible for his current condition. I called 2, 3 people for helping him out. Blood was unremittingly coming out of his mouth. I took him to the St. John Hospital. I was thanking to the GOD that hospital was very close to that place. After half an hour that person was perfectly alright and could talk easily.

When that person came to know that I took him to the hospital, he was very much delighted to me. I told him the whole story from starting to end.

While returning to the office I was thinking on the way, in spite of saying sorry to that person if I had balanced him then he would not have faced such a horrible situation.

When I reached to the office a full satisfaction was appearing on my face. I couldn't understand what had happened to me but later I realized that the word “SORRY” was not limited to just a word of English dictionary…

Many Nights Fight For One Project

Sometime I think, Is it right to spend many of our nights for office work?

Does it make senses If company pay you very well then you should start thinking about the company. I can never come to the ratiocination. When we start our career we fly in the open sky of dreams but when we come to know the real truth of business world then we realise that dreams are dreams. The only thing is our soul and mindset that keep us in peaceful state.

I remember the time which I have spent in my last company for one of the project. We were total six people working on that project. We had very tight timeline for completing it. It was one of the challenging task of my life.

It was very important project for me not just as I started my career but I had to do it for company. I had to do my best for it. Not a single day of six month (Target time for completing the project) I didn't think about myself. I didn't know the real truth of business world that's why I was very much dedicated towards company.

Main motive is not to tell that you should not dedicated towards the company but you should dedicated towards you work, towards your career, your growth.

Because company does for you only and only if you have a required skill to grow their business because they are in market only for business. You are selling your skills to them, if you don't have those skills set you can never survive in the market.

Real fact was dedication, that was not for my career not for my growth, it was only for the company for which I was spending my nights for completing the project.

If you are in peace that mean you are very much satisfy with the task whatever you are doing in your professional and personal life. My definition of peace is "Peace is an expression of love - that allows creativity, strength, Wisdom to emerge and to continue the ongoing work of creation of the Divine Source - for re-creating the world into its original form of love, peace, justice, joy, absence of suffering and without anything lacking"

Peace means when your mind is in your control. Whatever you think, realise and express that does not related to heart that is related to the mind. You are in self motivation state that means you are in peace.

Lets come to the cover story. Project, deadline, customer satisfaction, hard work, meet the time line, code quality, unit testing of what you have written, write down test cases before QC. All these are some horrible term but quite interesting.

It was 2 o'clock in the night when i wanted to clarify my doubt from one of my brilliant colleagues. Seems to be very scary that am asking my doubt at 2 in the night but it is true. Myself, my team leader basab kumar banarjee, Mohneesh singh, subhasis gorai, pradeep c, Nitin Chaudhary, ram prasad all we were working together for finishing the project as soon as possible and yes we were working in late nights. The name of our project was "REPAIR". I don't know that we were repairing the old project or we were trying to build the new application. 

 

But it doesn't matter what was it. We 6 people 
were enjoying the coding and the moment was giving me the full peace of mind. I was working for myself, for my career and for my growth not for my employer. 

My TL was the great human being. He always used to say, "Always do for yourself and learn from your past experience". It was bit tough to get into the work which you don't like to do but it is also true that if you involve you mind your heart in any kind of work, you would get a full peace of satisfaction and pleasure.

2 years has passed and am not with my old company. I have changed the job. One day in the month of september 2007, i came to know that the project which gave me full peace of mind has reached to it's destination. Customer are pretty happy with it and it is successfully running in the production. 

Moral of the story is that your old work and your past experience can only guide you for your future growth. Whatever you are doing consider it that you are doing it for yourself not for your employer. 

An Adventure Trip To Honnemardu

Mohneesh said "Dandlee would be great place for this trip", but due to some reason we had to change our plan from Dandlee to Honnemardu. When we reached Honnemardu that time we all realised that the decision was correct.

I think you are little bit confused OK ! No problem, let me take you into the context.
We all are working with Tavant Technology Bangalore and this was our quarterly trip from company and we all decided to go to Honnemardu.
Myself, Our Dada "Basab Kumar Banarjee" , Our boss Sameer, Nitin Choudhary, Ankit Pandey (Aang pen),Sudhakar ,Vatsa, Harsha, Pradeep, Ram Prasad, Nitesh, Subhasis, Soubhagya, Amit Sharma, Amit bajaj, Arun BS and lot more people.
Unfortunatly Mohneesh could't get a chance for this trip.
'Honnemardu' is supposed to be a village submerged under the Linganmakki reservoir in Shimoga district.
We started on Friday morning at 7:00 AM.
We hired a private travel Bus from Bangalore. Bus was pretty good. I got a window seat. Initially we were doing lot of masti. we were shouting together. Not hard to say that we were enjoying a lot. We could not come to know how early we finished our whole journey. We played antakshari. I hope all people who were the part of journey can never forget my Snake dance while playing antakshari. This is the thing i want to pointing out, when we go ahead, we always forget the old moments this is human propensity.
If you try to imagine those moments in which you have cried, you will laugh after calling back those moments. The moments in which you have laughed, you will scream after bringing it.

We reached Shimoga by 1:00 pm. Shimoga : "District lies in western ghats, locally called Malnad. The distance between Bangalore and Shimoga is 280Kms and situated at North-West direction from Bangalore. This district has beautiful forests with waterfalls."
One of the famous Jag Fall is in Shimoga Only.

By 6:00 pm we reached Honnemardu. I would not make any guilty if I would say that we reached in one of the heaven of earth. My eyes has never seen such green place in my life. Whole area was pollution free. Nobody allow to smoke, drink, can't use poly bags. This was awesome experience for all of us. We were very tired but when we saw the place, Nobody knows from where a spritual enery came to all of us mind and body. We were feeling like, just now we have come out from our bed and it was one of the beautiful evening for all of us.
I have collected all those moments in my camra for all of you.

A person was assigned to our team, his name was ganpati. He was seems to be one of the villager who had knowledge about the area. He took all of us to a place, a round cemented circle was there. He told all of us about the rule and ragulation of that area. we laid donw for taking the rest on the round cemented circle.





Nitin said, "Pappu ye kanha aa gaye hum?", All we expressed our joy.
This place was the mainland, ganpathi explained about the plan for tomorrow. The day we reached to Honnemardu, we could't do much activities. We played our own game. In night ganpathi served Kichri in dinner to all of us, the taste of the kichri was awesome. It was prepared on "chula". We ate khichri on banana leaves. This was the awe-inspiring experience for all of us.
Morning all we woke up at 4:00 AM, after finishing the daily activitis, as per the plan we had to go to the near by river. All we were very enthusiastic about the adventure activity that we were about to do. Life jackets were distributed to all of us.

This was for safty perpuse for the person who does't know swiming. All we were loaded with our "chappus".


We Started our journey towards the river. I saw lot of coracle (rounded boats) there. Activities that all we were about to do there were Rafting, Rappeling, Swiming using Life Jakets and one more but not the last was whole night fire camping in middle of forest.
We were marching towards the river, within 15 min all we were near the river. We formed 5 teams, 4 people each than we started comptetion among us. All we had to reach to the end of the river.

This was the first time i was flowing the coracle using chappu. This task is seems to be very easy but until or unless you would not involve it, you would never understand how much difficult it is.
Any way all we were not expert, we were struggling.

After a long while our group reached to the end. Ang pen, Nitin Choudhary and Sushanta was in my group. We were trying our best so that atleast we could come to the third position. there were the technique for flowing that rounded boat. Harsha was shouting "Jor Laga key haisa, Chappu chala key Haisa". For Harsha's team it was very unmanageable to flow the coracle . All people in his team was very fatty (Harhsa, Soubhagya, Sameer). But atlast they could able to reach at the other end of the river.
Our next task was very adventures, we had to spend our one night in middle of the forest means fire camp outing in night, there we had to learn how to cop up with the difficult situations. we were very exited for that task. Again we had to go to the one of the island by coracle there we had to spend our whole night. Sri Vathsa did't come by coracle, he swam through out the journey towards island.
That was the amazing enthusiasm he showed. Panday je said, "Yaar ek photo ho jaye". Ankit panday, one of the active and enthusiastic person of our team, we called him Aang Pen. He is a kind of person who always keeps his face happy and smily. While going to the island i took one photo of Ange Pen.
Than we started moving towards island. we took only half an hour to reach there, as we were now proficient in flowing the corales. I saw my watch, it was showing 7:00 pm. It was not much dark but was enough to think that night has started now. Ganpathi was guiding all of us. He took us to the middle of island, we had to do a little bit of struggle for reaching in the middle. Dark was on it's extream position. The shadows of the trees were seems to be atrocious. Ganpathi asked four or five people for collecting the wood for night fire. Suman, Ram Prasad, Subhasis and Nitesh helped ganpathi for that. After collecting the wood he showed all of us how to burn wood than he started bivouacking. After finishing the camping we had dinner together that was some special kind of rice which ganpathi had brought for all of us. After dinner we did night firing. We burned the wood and formed a circle. We played a lot of
things there. Till 2:00 am we were awaking afterwards nobody knows how come we fell in sleep. At 3:30 am, my eyes opened for a moment, nitin choudhar was doing some junglee activities for horrifying me. I expressed my feelings by my face and slumbered again.

I have some moments of that night for all of you. Anyone can realise how much masti we did there.

In morning we had to go back to the mainland, the place we started from. Everybody started cumulating their baggage whatever we were carrying.

One of us captured that nice moment. Ganpathi was explaning about the wellness of the ashes of fire. We started applying the ash on our faces. We were looking like as a hobgoblin.
We were feeling very tired but journey had not end yet. There were a lot activities to do. I would not like to go in deep but the time when we were returning to the mainland was awesome because the colour of clouds was pink, water was totally blue and the sky was seems to be like as a mirror image of blues lake that has covered all of us.

While flowing the coracle i was looking back to the island on which we had spent the last night. I could have never ever get a chance to live my life like that. How difficult it is to live a life similar to what, which we have lived only for one night. I was feeling the cold water falling in drops from vapor condensed in the atmosphere.

The sky that was very clear, when we started, now it was covered by smoke. We were facing lot of problem for identifying the direction of mainland. But atlast we could able to reach there.
After reaching the mainland we finished our daily activities, Ganpathi assembled all of us for brakfast.
It was 11:30 in my watch. Ganpathi shouted, "EveryBody should be ready for Jungle jaunt with in 15 min". Jaunt, " I though it should be a pleasure kind of trip", but unfortunatly we had to march almost 5 to 8 km in jungle. It was exciting but i know for some people it was agitating. We started our next journey towards Jungle