Never let your heart break. Keep smiling…

Heartbreak is a very strange distress. It is exquisitely painful, and yet we cannot find an injury on our body. It is like one big emotional pain but it also seems to spark off hundreds of other emotions. We hate the feeling of heartbreak, and yet we find ourselves compelled to go over and over memories, ideas or fantasies, which make the feeling worse.

I still have a clear view of the time when my heart was broken first time in my life. I realized the pain, grief and distress inside my broken heart, which is bit difficult to express. Lets take you to the days of my childhood. I was 6-year-old very funny and active kid. I hardly used to request for anything from my parents.

One day I was in my class. Teacher was telling us a story of 3 kids. They go to the circus and do lot of enjoyment. “CIRCUS” was the new word for me. I didn’t hear about the circus before. I asked my teacher, “What is this circus mam?” She explained this word in such way that I couldn’t control myself to see the circus in reality.

Whole night I was dreaming about the colorful and amazing story of circus. So many animals were dancing. Jokers were showing their amazing and funny shows. I was very much excited to see the circus. Next day I started asking my father, “Papa circus jana hai, Joker dhekney hai.”  My father didn’t know the feeling that had actually started coming in my heart. He simply replied, Circus who told you about that? My English teacher, I replied.

She told me everything about circus. I want to see the circus papa. My voice became gruff. Papa was looking at me like I had asked for very amazing thing. How could my father bring me to the circus? But I couldn’t understand that. I was 6-year-old little kid. 

Papa tried a lot to convinced me. But my heart had already developed a colorful picture of circus in my mind. I was not getting convinced. Atlast Papa said, “I would bring you to the circus in the evening.”

His approch for convincing me was pefect but he didn’t know the feelings that had built up like an Everest in my heart.

Whole day I was thinking about the circus. I was not able to give the concentration on my class. I was waiting for the evening. I told all of my friends that I was going to circus. I was very exited.

I was staring at the door. It was the pleasant moment for me when papa opened the door and entered inside. His eyes skimmed my face. He internally realized that I have not convinced yet.

After having his evening snacks. He called me. I was very happy. He said, “There is no circus in our city that’s why we are not going anywhere. Don’t cry. Go and play with your friends.”

I didn’t know what was happening to my little heart. A storm was coming inside the Everest of feeling.A little heart was broken.

It was the very tough moment, which cannot be described in words.

A smile comes to my face whenever that old moment comes to my mind. We actually don’t think about the current conditions. Whenever our heartbreak, our condition become like a small kids. If we analyse the situation and the current circumstances, we can come out of sadness and the feelings that we have developed in our heart.

Today, whenever my heartbreak or I feel sad. I recall that old moment and it always console me.

Never let your heart break. Keep smiling…